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6/22/2008
noone but me from URL @ 4:41 PM GUESS WHAT WE ARE DOING?  NOOO, not playing hide-and-seek.  NOOO, not acting like ET.  WE ARE starbucks MUG-GING! :D (hahahahahah!) okay lame. tomorrow's history paper, i have to write 4 freakin essays in 3 hours :/ i've only completed studying 2/4 of the topics, partially through the 3rd and completely have not touched the last topic (natlsm in sea which=boring shit). have loads of econs left to study, halfway through lit, not touched ki & maths can really go fly kite to pluto or sth. which effectively just means that im horribly screwed :/ but you know i honestly dont mind, (i think.. maybe a little) cos i know that i've been playing around for the first half of the year & i know that for the second half im really gna sit down and study, but still. :/ its not what my parents/tuition teacher/teachers/classmates are gna think. right? but oh wellllll, wth. who cares what they think, right? as long as i know what im doing its enough, right? right. other than the fact that i need to know that what im doing is right. rightrightright? leftrightleft,whosthebest, YOU! :D wellllll. to everyone and anyone, just keep going aye? STUDYHARD STUDYSMART ya'll! you are a liar. i just cant look, its killing me. 6/20/2008 noone but me from URL @ 11:00 PM HELLLO EVERYONE TWO THREE!  MEET SLEEPING-THAI-BOY & 3 BEEEOOOTIIFOOOL GIRLZZ!  & MEET PPG1! aka SAYANGGGG! hahahah. Anywayyyy! Omg i realise that when we study at marina square, its not enough that we're ppg (powerpandigang) you know, we make the area around us a freakin pig sty too. hahaha. OHWELLLLLL! PPGS POWER YAW! :D & sayang and i are going to do something damnnnn wrong tonight. together! :O!exxxxcciiiiitttinnngggggg! MWHAHAHA. OH! ANYWAYYYY! Today i bought caramel macchiato (or smth) and i was telling rupini its damn shiok. so i said, try some! then she action shy, dont want la. so i said nono trytrytry! & ZOMG SHE DRANK 3/4 OF THE WHOLE CUP OKAY! pandi. but welllll, i love my 2 pandis very much :) there's ndp tmr and i wish like hell i could go but stooopid midyears. oh and syf is next weeekkkk! thr's supposed to be live telecast on arts central, so watch out k! Friday evening. okay shit, i want to continue talking to myself (gosh i need a life) butttttttttt. i need to go and shit. sudden urge, byebyeeeeee! PEACE OUT, A TOWN. NA NA NA NA, NA NA NA NA. 6/18/2008 noone but me from URL @ 11:45 PM Meet, my mom.  HAHAHAHA!i love hugging my mom cos it makes me feel safe. i never get that feeling when i hug others. my mom bought me a small teddybear to wish me good luck for the midyears. she wanted to get me a soldier bear, but she couldn't find one; so she bought me a farm bear cos it was green in colour & she decided it was close enough to being a soldier bear, haha. my mom always leaves me random notes around the house, sends random smses to say that she loves me. & whenever im home in the mornings, she'll always wake me up saying breakfast is ready (cos she knows that that'll get me out of bed, heee). everytime my bro & i come home shouting "maaa hungryyyy", she'll ask us to shutup, but then within the hour food would come our way. my mom looks like me, hahaha. (okay that was random) but my mom. i have so much i want to tell her, so much i want to let her know & yet i dont know how. she loves me so much that it makes me hate myself for being so selfish. for making that decision that was truly yours to make. if you asked me that same question again, i'd say i'll go wherever you go. i think i cannot live without my mom. it wouldnt be.. home. but we cant turn back time, we cant make things that happened, not happen. i cant, at least. but i'll try do what i can, i really will though; i just pray it isnt too late. i was blind enough to make that decision, but not that blind to see what its done. stupid girl, stupid blindness, stupid decisions, plainjanestupidity. Whenever my mom comes home once im already asleep, she opens my room door, stares at me sleeping, closes my door ohsogently & then goes to bed. whenever i go to school i dont bother closing my door silently; i sometimes even shout for money. sarah, sarah. You know, this bothers me so much more than the casual frown i hold when i tell friends what happened; in all honesty, i wish i knew what to do. so when in lying in my bed, thoughts running through my head.
noone but me from URL @ 12:24 AM WATCH THIS VIDEO, ITS HILARIOUS! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-fVDGu82FeQ adlin showed it to me today & zomg, so damn cute! really really, dont be lazy and not click it. click and watch! :D i want to say so much but i'll stop here. Step by step, heart to heart, left right left, We all fall down like toy soldiers. 6/16/2008 noone but me from URL @ 2:28 PM I am at Marina Square Starbucks, again, this time with rupini sayanggg! :) No syimah cos she's at school (mwahaha!) & no nurin cos she balik kampong (haha!) &&& I've just finished my share of PW! :D Like finally. Anyway, i've been playing this song on repeat ever since, 12? Nickelback- Far Away. This time, This place Misused, Mistakes Too long, Too late Who was I to make you wait. Just one chance Just one breath Just in case there's just one left 'Cause you know,you know, you know [CHORUS] That I love you I have loved you all along And I miss you Been far away for far too long I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore On my knees, I'll ask Last chance for one last dance 'Cause with you, I'd withstand All of hell to hold your hand I'd give it all I'd give for us Give anything but I won't give up 'Cause you know,you know, you know [CHORUS] So far away Been far away for far too long So far away Been far away for far too long But you know, you know, you know I wanted I wanted you to stay 'Cause I needed I need to hear you say That I love you I have loved you all along And I forgive you For being away for far too long So keep breathing 'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore Believe it Hold on to me and, never let me go Keep breathing 'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore Believe it Hold on to me and, never let me go Keep breathing Hold on to me and, never let me go Keep breathing Hold on to me and, never let me go - :) & last night i dreamt that i was catching stars & the stars were burning. Weird. i'm gna continue fighting, but its tiring. and i've loved you all along. 6/15/2008 noone but me from URL @ 6:17 PM stupid blog cannot upload another picture but nvrmd sarah you just ripped it from nurin blog k! and the powerpoint at starbucks is freaking irritating so lose [nvrmd dont get it shuttup] and hahahah! just now i called sarahj's father whahahz ..sorry uncle! nyahahz ! sarahj phone is OHH so SLIM! nyahahz ohkae im hardworking enough to be blogging on her blog and and and sitting like monkey ! while they are busy studyinging but wait i saw COLOURFUL COLOURFUL thing on nurin's paper ohh she not studying! kick ass* and sarahj let me look throgh the pictures but tiz file she said she shy to let me see whahahz ! shall see you again kkkkkkkkkkk! ZOOOM! fly offff....[singapore stil] Ting tong!
noone but me from URL @ 5:41 PM  I AM STUDYING WITH THESE 2 ASSES! nurin just went to shitttt (dirtygirl!) & syimah is guarding her stupid laptop cos if she moves it will stop charging. (stupidgirl) NURIN'S BACK! SHE SAYS: haaaa,i feel so relieved!:D:D:D:D hahahahah! Zomg, what kind of friends do i have. During unit camp nurin pulled down my pants and beat my ass. ! Stupid pervert. I tell you, she has a fetish for girls, so watchoutttt! & syimah ah, she has a talking disease. Talktalktaaaalkkkk only know. But good la, entertaining. & i have my prepaid number already! :] Uhhh, okay back to work! :D you love me but you dont know who i am, so let me go.
6/13/2008 noone but me from URL @ 8:42 PM Back from Unit camp, back to reality. simply said, a job well done kidz. pride goes beyond words. Eh nurin rupini, PPG yo! HAHA. Btw just to let ya'll know, my phone line's cut again. How high is your bill? Skyhigh yo! Ha.Ha.Ha. You can still msg & call but i doubt i'd respond unless its important. (using someone else's phone that is.) But i think im gna get a prepaid number for now, so if i don't tell you the number, ask me k. &! i am some jinxed freak when it comes to phones. The phone suria so kindly lent me decided to die on me too ): sorryyy suriaaaa! but anyway, now im phoneless. (looking on the bright side, it works out since i dont have a line for a phone so wth) i fought with my dad today over something that just leaves me flabbergasted, really. it happened so fast with such a casual line that, aiya. aiyaaaaa. plus, i might have ruined my mom's life cos i was selfish? and the stupid mid years that are coming up. i have so many stupid things on my mind & im telling the worldwideweb, bloodyhell. idontknowwhatthehellishappeningifeelsodamnlostineedtogetagripbutireallydontfindthestrength. imallivegotsomuchfor- ndp tmr. im beginning to think my dad was right. part of the reason why i like ncc so much is cos it lets me escape from reality, just for that time. sarahhhh, sarah. sheesh. i talk too much, when i find the time this goes. i feel like going for another campppppp! ): k nvm ndp tmrrrr! :) can we stop the world from turning? 6/11/2008 noone but me from URL @ 10:30 AM i am going to wear my pair of purple crocs for unit camp! (i dont own sandals okay, shuddup.) :D pictures of you, pictures of me remind us all of what we used to be. 6/08/2008 noone but me from URL @ 11:52 PM i could be doing a 101 things right now, but noooo. im feeling stubborn, refusing to type in proper engrish & refusing to do the 101 things. im tired la dammmit! mon-thurs: specs course v.03 funniest & perhaps the best part! syimaholmes was my pc! HAHA :D handled raven5 on my own on the 1st day, 2nd with syimah & 3rd and 4th with zixuan as well. Ah, tiring as it was, i thoroughly enjoyed myself :) just coincidentally reddy was our oc, rupini was raven4's apc, syimah & i in raven 5 and poor nurin alone in her fish tank! haha. (+shankar who crashed :) baik ah! i learnt quite a few things from the seniors, as well as the cadets; they (cadets) always surprise me. but zomg, these kidz are damn amusing! hahaha. plus at the end of each camp im always pleasantly reminded of why i joined the clt course :) "Raven 5! huhhhhh, baguuuuuus!" :D (the stupid cans of coffee & hw rotted in my bag btw) friday: syf rehearsal. was pretty slack cos np goh didn't turn up. & sad cos parade commander wasnt there! trained the girls, then shaz xiao wei & i went to nyp macs for lunch :) went home to sleeeeeep. saturday: ndp rehearsal. also pretty slack cos it rained again. (aha!) replaced nurin for one rehearsal & zomgg, my feet were cramping! its been a long time since i've stood so straight for so long seh. oh! haha it was funny fun laughing at the girl guides & the bb guy who threw away the bomb. haha, loser! syimah rupini nurin xiaowei and i met reddy at banquet for dinner, ate, lepaked at mrt station, then went home, to sleeeeeeep again. today: study. aft church met rupini & syimah to study at the airport. ate talked watched laptop but studying was surprisingly productive! eh syimah! im impressed tt you can shuttup longer than rupini seh! hahah. & the 2 of them fighting is super amusing! ahahah :D left for dinner at bedok & then now, home sweet home. - i have no idea why i just listed out my whole week, but i did. i have approx 2 weeks left till the midyears. 14 days - 5 days for ncc = 9 days left to study = siao ting tong. im reallly gna screw these myes up mann :/ to think that i know & im not doing anything about it, sheeshkebabs. & btw my baby is gna be a no1 soccer player i tell you, bloodyhell. damn painful. alrightyho, im gna go off. to sleep. i tell you, there's something wrong with me nowadays, im a freakin slackerrrrr. yucks. im pretending that i dont care, but you're at the back of my mind. hello, im scared. i was born to tell you that i love you, isnt that a song already, i get a B for originality. 6/07/2008 noone but me from URL @ 9:51 PM i miss you so so so much, im horribly exhausted, yet pleasantly satisfied with all that's been achieved :) (ignoring all that's been left undone, of course) i want to claim soon please, goodnight. tonight will be the night that i will fall for you. 6/01/2008 noone but me from URL @ 6:01 PM  I was sitting in a potthinggie, syimah was waiting for snow (HAHA!) & shankar was trying to strike a model pose but CMI (Heeeeh!) :]
I'm gone for Specs Course till Thursday; my bag's packed with 3 cans of coffee, 1 can of red bull, maths & econs notes, my graphic calculator & uhh ya ncc stuff. My 4 day escape from real-world, whooptidoo! Catch you later, suckerzzz! :D Happy living! i keep a sinister smile & a hole in my heart.
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Hello, I'm sarahJ 290491 ex-cedarian, victorian NCC- delta 07, cadet officer |
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